Worming Back into the Blogosphere

June 6, 2023

It has occurred to me that my blogging history is like the proverbial caterpillar-to-butterfly metaphor. Pardon me for being trite. My initial blog, kept from 1998 to 2015, can be described as the caterpillar stage.

Every night, I posted the big and little things in my life while unknowingly inviting a lot of unwanted abuse from trolls and stalkers, who nearly wore me down, and sent me to the doctor for anti-depressants.

I then moved to a different blogging platform, where I had control over who could comment. That one went from 2015 to 2017, I think. It suddenly disappeared, though, content, images, and all, from lack of use.

I also lost my will to blog at the time, because my wife was diagnosed with breast cancer. As her sole caregiver, I had neither the time nor the energy to post entries every night, and I was loathe to write about nothing but the cancer experience that consumed nearly every minute of my day and night. I had nothing else to write about. Thus, I entered the chrysalis stage.

I loved personal blogging when it was at its peak, and I very much resented places like Facebook, Twitter, and MySpace when they kicked personal blogging out the door, stomped on it, and monetized it.

These days, blogs are like billboards cluttering up the information super highway. But why, I recently asked myself, why can't I still blog like I used to? Granted, fewer people will read my writings, but so what? It's the writing I enjoy.

So here I am, nearly two years into the grieving process following my wife's passing, a butterfly breaking out into a new existence without her. When I was a mere caterpillar, I had no idea a butterfly lived inside of me.

Okay, let's drop the metaphors.

So here I am blogging again, hopefully as I did before, but with 25 more years of life experience. Wiser? Maybe. Older? Certainly. But I'm also younger in a lot of ways, because with the years came a defiant attitude that I really don't care what people think anymore.

I have no problem telling people to f--k off these days.

I have a lot to write about now, so I hope you'll bookmark this page, and return regularly. I look forward to sharing my thoughts with you. I hope you'll take advantage of the comments section, if just to let me know you dropped by.

Kaye